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Universityentrystress!!!  *pulls hair* Bah humbug!
lol all I came to my journal for is to fill out a meme. How self-centered. I feel like I posted too much on my other journal this week and wasn't showing any love to this journal. Not as many or nobody reads this one. But I love it all the same. So here it goes, anothere meme.

[One] Who was your last text from?
Ian.

[Two] Where was your default pic taken?
Stolen from another user? 

[Three] What's your middle name[s]?
Lynn. I sound so plain.

[Four] Your current relationship status?
Single~

[Five] Does your crush like you back?
Nope. I'm fairly certain.

[Six] What is your current mood?
Contentish but know I have important stuff to do.

[Seven] What's your dads name?
Edward.

[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?
Purple. My favorite color.

[Nine] What was the last thing you drank?
Italian Merlot.

[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
Just so I could have more time to work on something yes lol.

[Eleven] Have a crazy side?
Yes. But everybody does.

[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?
lol yes, asians being terrible drivers is not just a stereotype it's a fact. "omg it was invisible!!", "really Maeda-san? The cliff?" 

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?
Think.

[Fourteen] Angry at anyone?
Yes.

[Fifteen] Do you wanna see somebody right now?
Yes. Becky-chan for sure.

[Eighteen] Who would you do anything for?
I've learned that I shouldn't anymore.

[Nineteen] Who is your idol?
Various people.

[Twenty] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their humor? I guess you can't see that first but if you can make me laugh repeatedly you're golden.

[Twenty-one] What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Cinnamon Dolce latte. London Fog or a Caramal Apple Spice.

[Twenty-two] What's your biggest secret?
lol I think I would reveal that on a Facebook status not on LJ, sorry LJ you're just not good enough.

[Twenty-three] Where is your ex?
Below my S and D keys.

[Twenty-five] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
Yes. All of the time.

[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Wine.

[Twenty-seven] Do you speak any other languages?
Some Japanese and French. Not fluent or passable by any means...

[Twenty- eight] Whats your favorite smell?
Wine? 

[Twenty-nine] Describe your life.?
Wha. A roller coaster.

[Thirty] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Nope.

[Thirty one] Do you like the rain?
Yes. Except when you have to walk through it and your shoes are cold and you are having a bad time when you were expecting to have a great time out with your friends. BREATHE.

[Thirty-three] What should you be doing right now?
Searching on the internet through universities in the UK. Filling out applications.

[Thirty-five] What are you listening to?
The computer fan.

[Thirty-six] Where did you spend new years?
At home.

[Thirty-seven] Are you holding anything back from anyone?
Yes.

[Thirty-eight] Do you act differently around people you like?
Yes.

[Thirty-nine] What is your natural hair color?
Brown.
I met a wonderful girl with a beautiful name the other day. Her name was Sonnet. It's a handsome name. No other words for it, and I thought I would share that.
I am looking through the list of Universities in the UK. And I am foolishly judging the universities by first; do they have an Art History course and second; how pretty is their campus... and by that I mean how old does it look? I'm human. Let's be honest that's what everyone does. Except for very smart people. Obviously Cambridge is the prettiest and the most qualified and entirely out of reach lol. A girl can dream. But from what I heard it's not being allowed in that's the difficult,, it's being able to afford being there that is (not speaking specifically about Cambridge). Says Becky. I think it has to be a mixture of almost both.That is why I am still applying for schools here in Canada. Because that's sensible.

I'm only on the L's.

Jan. 7th, 2009

I'm thrilled that my application isn't due until March 24th. Whew.

I've decided to not go to University here next year. I'm excited. I decided to instead apply to schools in the UK. I am a few months late for the Fall admissions for international students but, they might have room. Becky got in last minute when she came back from Japan, she even switched Universities a week into her semester. Besides my grades are all right, it's not like I'm applying to Oxford. This is the first time in awhile I've wanted something for myself. Instead of just doing something because I have to and it would make sense. This isn't an over night decision but if it had been to anybody else, why the hell not do it? 

Though lol I see Russia has cut off Europe's gas. Hope that all gets sorted.
 

I slept in late today. For the first time in ... two weeks? It kind of blows. I always feel guilty when I wake up late, there's so much to do. I just keeping having these really bad sleeps, where you body is so weighed down you can't get up, and when you go back to sleep you are having these deep long nightmares. They don't even make sense either.

One I was in Tokyo again. But the subways all looked really different, everything was made of stained glass. I was with a group of children from a school in my mind and I was running away from someone but, I never saw their face. I was just really scared.  The school children and I were catching a train going in the direction of Kyoto. I could see the train from all directions even though I was standing on the right hand side of the tracks by the doors. When my mind floated back to where I was standing the train was already taking off. I ran towards one of the open doors but they closed and threw me back onto the floor. I could feel that the back of my head was bleeding. Then I heard Rebecca's voice and she was yelling for me to get back up and to get on the train. I got up and it hurt a lot. I tried to run towards another set of doors near the end of the train and the same thing happened. The back of my head was bleeding a lot. I looked down and I saw blots on the floor. I kept combing my hand through my hair, it felt so nice and warm because of the blood.

Then I felt scared again, like the person found me, the person I was running away from. I ran through the crowd of people, trying to push them but they all locked arms keeping me from going anywhere out of the station. I felt hands pulling my shoulders back, I didn't want to look behind me to see who it was. And then another one started up after I woke up for a second.

Boxing Day week. My God. I feel so sorry the sales people that have to deal with it and the aftermath. D: I am so glad I just work at a grocery store.

Can you believe that LCBO was all out of alcohol(... that I could afford) D: ?!

Do you wear a ring on your finger?
No..

Where are you right now?
On the stool in front of my Mom's big arm chair.

What are you doing?
Was reading my book a little bit ago. Just wanted to quickly check my LJ accounts and Facebook though.

Do you miss anyone right now?
Lexie.

Do you wish you could turn back the hands of time?
Nah.

Do you like the song 'I Kissed A Girl' by Katy Perry?
I don't like when people play it overandover, but I do like it. Yes.

Are you mad at anyone?
Sort of.

Do you listen to your friend's advice when they give it to you?
I am usually only looking for a second opinion. But most of the time, sure.

What's the last kind of soup you ate?
Pea Soup! Mmm...

Would you ever get back with an ex?
Uuuuhh...

Do you currently have a sunburn?
In Canada?

Could you eat nothing but grilled cheese for a week straight?
No. No oh God no.

Could you last an hour without talking?
I like to make sounds. But yeah I can. But never if I am with someone.

Whats the longest you've been hospitalized?
Ummm...

When is the next time you'll talk to the person you like or love?
in July?/August? 

Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
Nah.

Who was the last person who called you?
Dot... or Steph.

Have any interesting conversations lately?
Yes

What are some lyrics from the song you're listening to?
All it takes is a little faith, and a lot of heart

Back and forth we ply these oars
They move in time and get entwined
Green with joy then gray with sorrow
Ripened fruit that falls tomorrow
Filling us with brilliance


Who was the last person to leave you a voice mail?
I can't afford voicemail lol.

Is your day going good so far?
Great, actually thank you.

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
You should always look.

Has anyone hurt or betrayed you recently?
Yes.

Do you enjoy life?
Generally.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a B?
Nope.

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine. It was so comfy last night... me and Bridget Jones Diary... hmm.

What are your plans for the next weekend?
Can't remember.

Do you still have feelings for your ex?
HAHA.

What color shirt are you wearing?
Grey.

Ever go camping?
YES! (Ilovecamping) 

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
Drama.

Have you spoken to your mother today?
Yes. She is even sitting right in front of me, reading her soft-core porn book.

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
Ten minutes ago.

Where were you an hour ago?
LCBO.

Do you think your first love affects the way you go on with life?
"Any person met will in some way affect your life." I agree Garold G.

Latest you stayed up in the past week?
1 AM. I have been so good :)

Zebra or leopard print?
Leopard.

What do you hear right now?
The wind blowing against the window pane

Where are the noises you hear coming from?
I just told you lol.

Where was your default picture taken?
Um some LJ community.

Would you rather be somewhere else right now?
I'm good right now.

Who else is in the house with you?
Parents and Aaron.

Does anything hurt on you right now?
My left wrist. And my right foot is numb.

What's the last stuffed animal you bought?
Osaka, Japan... it was a stuffed Sally toy. I can't remember which month though.

Have you and your best friend been mistaken as related?
lol yes.

What does the nearest sweater/hoodie/jacket to you look like?
There isn't one near me. Well I am wearing a grey sweater... it's long and goes down to my knees. It's itchy too.

What is directly behind you?
Fireplace.

Who was the last person that left you a myspace comment?
I haven't checked my Myspace in forever.

What year will/did you graduate high school?
2007.

Are you a good cook?
Nope. I'm too absent minded.

How much gas is in your tank?
I don't have a tank to fill up.

Do you sleep with a night light?
Not anymore. I had to sleep with the bathroom light on until I was ten. D: 

Did the person who hurt you the most apologize?
No. Well one person did, but they don't mean it.

Are you left or right handed?
Right.

Who is the first person on your top friends?
I refuse to fill in my top friends. That's how people start fights.

Do you know who will be the godparents of your future children?
No. I don't plan on having children, and if I do not for a very very long time.

Do you already have children?
No.

Do you put a subject for the bulletin before or after you've finished filling the body out?
Before.

OK. So the girl that I (kindof) beat up a few days ago keeps sending me angry messages on Facebook. It is getting really annoying. She keeps going on and on about trust and getting upset that I am asking friends if she is OK. Emotionally and physically. I was genuinely concerned. Just because I beat her up does not mean I am a bad person. She came at me first and I was standing my ground.

I am actually proud of myself. I swore that I would never let someone take advantage of me again and I would stick up for myself, and I have proven to myself that I can.

I don't know. I don't understand girls. I know boys that get into fights all the time and they get over it easy and still our great friends. What happened sucks but come on--- life is short. There is no use wasting our time being mad and seeking out revenge over stuff that won't matter when we are forty. Am I weird?